"I don't understand...we used protection." Caeden stated, a look of confusion on his face as he stared dumbfounded at Fiona. "We...bought them that same night...so how...?"
"I'm as confused as you are, Caeden, but it still doesn't make the baby go away...and I'm not getting an abortion." Fiona put her foot down as Caeden opened his mouth, "That's not happening. I'm raising this baby with or without your help."
"I...I..." Caeden stammered helplessly. He hadn't reckoned on anything more than a one-night stand but his own libido had betrayed him...and walked him down the aisle with the idea of a little more regularity. The protection that he'd always sought in terms of contraceptives failed and now he had a responsibility. One that he wasn't prepared for at all; a baby? A family on the way - that was far too much for him in any stretch of his imagination. "I don't even know what to think...Fiona...this is so sudden." He scratched his head trying to make heads or tails of the situation and still ended up coming up with no answers. "Fiona...I need time to think about this."
Fiona sighed. She knew that it would come to this. Caeden wasn't ready to take responsibility for the child he sired, even if he had gone to the trouble of getting married just to get some, and if he needed time to think about it, the chances were great that he was going to run. Which wasn't unusual for Caeden McIrish as he'd been running for most of his life, not willing to face responsibilities and generally getting into trouble. "You do what you have to; Caeden, and I'll do what I must. I have a baby to take care of."
Yet Fiona couldn't help but wonder how she was going to manage when she saw Caeden turn on his heels and walk out the door, hands clasped behind his back as if in deep thought about his options.
A week later - Sunset Valley
Fiona Kelly-McIrish had never realized what she had gotten herself into when it came to becoming a single mother. But emotionally, she'd fallen head over heels for the man who had impregnated her with child. But there would be no happy ending for Fiona who would end up having to raise her child on her own for the moment that she informed him of the fact that she was with child, he disappeared so fast that he left shoe-tread marks on the sidewalk.
It was at that point that she realized just what a mistake it was to believe the lies that one Caeden McIrish had whispered in her ear just to get her into bed with him, it appeared. After all, it appeared as though he was yet another one of those "love and leave" types though he had gotten farther than most - to the point of putting a ring on her finger, but just as fickle as those who were in her dating history.
With the pain of Caeden's disapppearance, she opted to move lock stock and barrel to a new town and that town would be her new beginning. Hopefully this would help her to mend her broken heart and perhaps to give her and her daughter, once she came into the world, a new start in life.
As she watched the Asian couple across the street who was also just moving into a 1BR home looking forward to starting their own life, she sighed sadly. In a ways, she envied that woman. That woman was lucky, her husband was there with her. But for Fiona, she'd never had much luck with guys, after all...it appeared as though all she could attract in any case were the ne'er-do-wells who didn't amount to anything and would be attracted to anything walking around in a skirt. And to be abandoned, especially in this state with child in womb and near penniless; she wondered how she was going to survive. Caeden had lied to her and told her all these things of how he was going to change, become the husband that he wanted to be and all that other malarkey which Fiona had fallen for hook-line-and sinker, but all for naught. The second he learned that Fiona had become pregnant and was with child, he'd packed up and shot out the door leaving her with no money and no way of providing for a baby that would soon be making its arrival in the world. Whatever was she going to do?
Why couldn't Caeden have been mature enough to take responsibility for his actions. Fiona knew that there were ramifications and she took full responsibility for having been blind enough to fall for Caeden's lies in the first place...so blind in fact that she had followed him right down that aisle.
The devil's advocate in her head taunted her, "You knew the risks of getting involved with Caeden McIrish; and you jolly well went down that road anyways." it snickered, "Devil's in the details, idnit? Now you've gone and done it and now ye're with a young'un. That'll teach you to do the beast with two backs. Now ye're in for it..."
"Well, I'm a tough Irish lass," Fiona said to herself, gritting her teeth, "I'm not letting one itinerant irresponsible lout get the best of me. If I have to dig and claw till my hands're raw, I'll do it and I'll make the best life possible for my daughter."
"How you know if it's a daughter? Maybe you'll spawn another irresponsible boy like his father. Considering your lil'one's genetics, it wouldn't be that far a stretch." Fiona fervently wished her little internal devil's advocate would just shut the hell up and let her be.
Everything would be alright, Fiona squared her shoulders..."I'll do what I have to do...and nothing you say...Go hifreann leat!" And wonders of wonders, her internal devil's advocate actually shut up. But fast on its silence, her own doubts came rushing in, Whatever was she going to do?
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